Things do not always go as planned.

I have had a mellow and lazy week. I have been so humbled and so thankful. I have been forced to slow down and take it easy. I was having an amazing week last week and really excited to have some of my family coming for Easter. I was cooking the entire meal myself and hiding eggs for kids and everything. I love this age for Tanner. I took him to the Easter egg hunt for N.A. on Saturday and was so excited to do his Easter basket. As a mommy these are some of the things you look forward to. I also was planning on doing the Resurrection eggs for kids on Sunday. A very cute craft that we did at MOPS using the eggs to tell the true story of Easter. Christ coming and dying on the cross and rising again. How amazing our Saviour is ALIVE and wants to be in relationship with us. Well we woke on Easter and went to church. A beautiful service. We came home and our family came and I was just really looking forward to being together. We had a slight change of plans. On that day I was 6 weeks and four days pregnant. I started having some issues. (I will spare you all the gory details) I was scared and ended up telling all the family. My sis-in-law and hubby took over cleaning up and made me rest in the chair. My brother Scott and sis-in-law Lisa ended up taking Tanner home with them and Billy and I ended up at the ER. I was nervous and just quietly asking GOD for comfort. Thanks to our wonderful friend Mel we did not have to wait long at the ER. Long story short we heard our baby's heartbeat. We still are under the care of our fertility Dr. and we went to see her the next day. We again heard our baby's heartbeat. Dr. Patel was concerned and asked me not to work out, clean, shop, cook etc. She is a wonderful Dr. and seemed to be really confident that our baby is going to make it. We did In vitro with Tanner in 2009 and when we did we had two embryos that we were able to store. We decided to try for baby two this year and proceeded forward. Our chances were less than before and I believe I had totally layed down at God's feet either way.Once we decided the process was pretty easy compared with all we went through in 2008 and 2009. We went in for procedure and DR. Patel told us only one embryo survived. It only takes one!! This baby is a fighter. :)They can give you all the statistics in the world and we know who is in charge. As my sister and in law Elaine and mother in law Joy both told me "God is still in the miracle business." I loved hearing that. I took it as HE is strong in my weakness. I am still very pregnant and have felt SO sick this week. I look forward to having another baby. I know Tanner will love having a little brother or sister. I know the joy of having a sibling and I personally always wanted more than one kid. Two in my eyes would be perfect. But like the title explained things do NOT always go as planned. I have had an awesome week. I am blessed beyond measure. I thought I would be going stir crazy BUT I am not.( But it has only been one week) I have enjoyed sitting outside watching Tanner play in the dirt, I have been able to work on my photo books, I have watched movies with my family, I have been able to read books, and study God's Word. I have learned a lot in this book I am reading on boundaries. I am loving it. I feel I am growing as a woman. I do miss working out BUT I know all things will be there. I will be able to do all that after this baby comes. This will be our last. I feel SO much better at the beginning of this pregnancy compared to my last pregnancy and NOT worried at all about staying healthy. :) My husband has been amazing and jumping in and cleaning, cooking, and grocery shopping. He is awesome!! Tanner has been mommy's little buddy all week. He has been so good! Maybe he knows that he needs to be. Tanner's meme brought us dinner on Wednesday and came and spent time with Tanner man. Everyone has called and Ashlee has offered to make a meal whenever I need and Aimee has offered to take Tanner if I need. My mom wants to come up and help too. I am hoping to be able to return to my normal activities of meetings, cleaning, taking care of my family, and working out BUT I know that life does not always go as planned and sometimes trusting GOD means praising him when things DON'T go our way and our schedules get interrupted. That is a hard one for me cause I am very organized and scheduled. Billy says he thinks Tanner is too and gets that from me. :) It definately has been hard in some ways this week. I am still very concerned about our newest baby. I will however TRUST GOD'S PLAN. I will walk in confidence knowing how much he loves me. This is his baby anyway. We go tomorrow at 11:15 to see Dr. Patel again and I will keep you all posted. Praying for a strong heartbeat and a baby that's grown since last visit! You pray too o.k. As I am posting this my hubby is getting lunch for my little boy. My heart is overflowing. Help me remember these amazing days Lord when those really hard ones knock me off my feet!!