A new phase of life.........

     Holden is officially down for the night in his crib for the last time. The Spivey family is graduating out of the nursery phase. His new furniture will be here in the morning. It truly is bitter sweet. It seems as though just yesterday I was blogging about holding and nursing my newborn baby Holden Russell with Christmas music playing and Christmas lights on. Billy had taken Tanner (then 3) to run errands with him and it was just me and Holden. He was just a couple weeks old and a head full of dark hair. I remember that day. I cleaned a little and just mostly held him while sitting in the recliner.  I knew how fast it would go. Even now I want to bottle his 2 year old voice in a jar and keep it in my purse. (Not when he is telling me "no I don't want to" but when he says "rock me mommy") He is wild but so tenderhearted. I didn't feel so bad when Tanner got his big boy room because I was 6 months pregnant and so excited for our family and the new addition on the way.  The nursery was getting redone for a new baby not leaving completely. (We are giving our crib and changing table to my brother josh and his girlfriend Stephanie as she is 10 weeks pregnant. So happy for them.) It isn't that I want more kids. I really am happy and our family is complete.  It is just I have truly been enjoying these days at home with them. Yesterday we had a blast having lunch at the pool and swimming until after 2. Today we hung at home and the boys played outside. Later we all made our own homemade pizzas for dinner and read library books after the boys bubble bath. Time seems to be flying faster somehow. I will cherish these days. I will remember how it feels to rock him, how is hair is entirely too long because he won't let us cut it, how he laughs really hard if I ask him if he wants a princess room, how his hand feels in mine after I get him out of the truck to go into the store, and how we (just Holden and I) always say to each other "I'm going to kiss that baby to death." Tanner loves his brother so deep. He cried when he had to have stitches. We had to go the kids ER and Tanner started crying when we got back there cause he was so worried about him. WE checked out several new books this week and Tanner picked out one called "Good Big Brother" He loves it. We read it at lunch today. His smile while I read it is one etched in my brain for the rest of my life. I'm not sorry for being Gushy over my children. You see that's the funny thing about these boys they just do that to me. I'm thanking God for them today.