Casting all my Cares upon HIM!

I am actually enjoying a quiet moment. With two boys I have to say its rarely quiet. Not to mention a husband and dog. :) I love it but it is chaotic at times. I have been starting every morning in Holden's room with my coffee, devotion, and my boys. Tanner usually brings his juice and puzzles in and we pray while I nurse the baby. I am trying to hold onto these moments with both hands as they are fleeting. This last week God has really comforted me and reminded me that I am his daughter fearfully and wonderfully made. This morning I read in 1 Peter 5:7 King James Version (KJV) Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. I have been asking God to help me be a strong and graceful mommy. When I doubt myself or I fall short(I do often) I call on him. That's how he wants it. He knows we are human and we will make mistakes But he designed me to be Holden and Tanner's mommy. It is a BIG job and he blessed me with tons of people who love us. But mostly I call on HIM. This verse I have been holding onto. He cares about everything. Even when I feel overwhelmed and utterly exhausted he helps me. I wish I lived closer to my mom and sister and rest of my family so I could just pop in or they could come over more but we talk almost everyday and 90 miles isn't that far. I have awesome in-laws who live in town and I have amazing friends.So thankful for my girl Ashlee who I can run with and vent to. We had MOPS today and I am so grateful to be a part of this fellowship. I have so many women who have come to love on me and the boys since Holden has been born. My girls in N.A. are wonderful and again it is another support group that helps me in my life. Holden is getting so big and he is the sweetest baby boy. Tanner keeps me on my toes daily. I love that I get to be a full time mommy. We watched a video today about parenting by Andy Stanley. I want to raise my boys to be strong confident men in Christ and when they are adults in 20 years that I can be friends with them and that we will have close relationships. I value my time with them and I tell them often. When I was putting Tanner down for his nap I said " baby boy you know I love being your mommy and I had so much fun playing outside with you today." He just smiled from ear to ear and that let me know he likes it too. I know I will blink and my boys will be in high school. That is why I blog. I can go back and read about our everyday lives together. One of the girls gave her mommy minute today and she described motherhood as a bowl of grapes. Sometimes you get a really sweet moment/grape and sometimes you get a sour moment/grape. A great analogy. Today was a sweet one for me. WE wore our PJS to MOPS and made memories outside. Lord I continue to lay my will down and seek your will. Thank you for allowing ME to be Tanner's mommy and Holden's mommy. I am truly in love with my family. I am super proud to be Billy's wife. We watched him cross the finish line of his first marathon (26.2 miles) this past weekend and soon we will be running one together. (If he can keep up with me.) Life isn't always easy and I am sure we will have hard days but as long as I cast all my cares upon HIM he will truly help me.

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