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          Life is overwhelming at times. It just is. I try to turn things over to God. Sometimes I'm great at it and sometimes not so much. Like right now I'm trying not to worry about the fact that we  have 80% chance of rain on Sunday. (the day of our boys big birthday party) Billy was sweet and said "Babe its going to go exactly the way its suppose to." That is true but I don't want it to rain. I want things to go perfectly for Tanner and Holden. I want all our friends and family to enjoy themselves and the kids to have loads of FUN playing outside and running around in the yard. I'm a planner. I just am. It's how I am wired. I like organization. I like order. I like things to go as PLANNED.  But see that's the funny thing about LIFE. It doesn't always go as planned. Being a mommy and wife I've learned that all too well. We've had a great month so far. My sidekick Tanner man turned 5 last Monday. I took cupcakes up to his school, I took him to the movies, and he got a few gifts. Holden turns 2 next Wednesday. The day before Thanksgiving. It seems like we were just having their party and they were turning 4 and 1. Tanner enjoys school and this week we have his parade and sing and Feast. Holden and I have been enjoying some new books at night and he loves going with me to the gym and anywhere else we need to go. Last night after bath time we played dress up in their room and had so much fun. They have a ton of dress up clothes now. I keep all their Halloween costumes and we have acquired other stuff too. Tanner said "Mommy this sure is fun. We need to this more often." I love these boys. Holden loves playing dress up too.  They both are so cute using their imagination and last night it was a real JOY to lay on their floor and not think about anything and just enjoy the moment. The unedited version. I get overwhelmed. I get tired. I get loud. I worry. AND things don't always go as planned. It may rain. So is life. I am so grateful that my boys are healthy and to be celebrating another year of sweet life with them. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOYS!